I have, in the past, been a hostage unto myself. Not in the physical and literal sense of the word as some have truly experienced. But my ‘heart’ and ‘will’ held captive by my mind. I haven’t written a ton about my experience with mental torment, but I have experienced it.
Over the last two years I had months where I agonized over every past mistake and misstep. Everything from
Read MoreThe last blog post on my website was July 10th, 2023. Today is September 13th, 2025. It’s been a good long time since I wrote anything here.
Today that is clearly changing. I’ve been processing a lot this past week. To be honest, I’ve been processing a lot for a long time.
Read MorePart of the creative process is sifting through what sometimes feels like a massive bin of ideas. I imagine myself leaning over, halfway in, tipped over the edge of the bin, one hand gripping the edge for support, and the other picking up one idea after the next, tossing each one aside one by one after careful examination.
Read MoreSometimes we are just kind of waiting for this bombshell idea, heavenly download to come, and then when it doesn't, we're like, God, why aren’t you speaking? Why aren’t you giving me the blueprint and showing me what I'm supposed to do? I'm so frustrated here.
Read MoreSometimes we get so hung up on what we see other people building that when we are building the raw and primitive version of what we want to do, we end up quitting or giving up or being way too hard on ourselves and getting distracted because we see somebody else's grand vision, grand palace that they've built. While we're looking at a one man show of the simple thing that we're trying to walk out.
Read MoreThere's so many areas where we have left those spaces and then they were overtaken. So I want to encourage you, whatever space that you feel called to as an ambitious woman of faith, whatever dominion you feel like you are meant to occupy and go into, whether that be government or entertainment or education, maybe a space or place in your own community, bring the best of what you have to give to those spaces because it's needed.
Read MoreSometimes we start to feel like living at our purpose is more like a fantasy than a reality. And in fantasies, everything goes well. It's amazing. But in reality, there's bumps in the road. There's resistance. There's uncertainty. There's self-doubt. There's some confusion. But all of those things are not reasons why you should give up on what you feel like God is stirring on your heart to do and pursue.
Read MoreSometimes our gold goes through a filtering process and the dirt and grime gets shaken away to reveal the beauty underneath. And that happens sometimes through trials and tribulations. We learn what we're made of, what we're capable of, the gold that rises up out of the hardest parts of our story.
Read MoreWhenever I travel, which isn’t too terribly often, (although this particular year has been more than normal for me) I always feel like I want to take advantage of new scenery, setting, and change in schedule to push harder to really hear something from Him to hang onto to get me through the next months ahead.
Read MoreThe curves and bends in the journey offer views we wouldn’t normally otherwise have access to had we not ventured off the beaten path in search of the "more" we craved. Our passion and purpose.
Read MoreWe all have blind spots.
We all have areas we think we need to focus on heavily, working hard, yet what happens when we miss the mark (the results we want)?
We. Get. Discouraged.
So how do you confront discouragement?
Read MoreFlesh wound vs. Heart wound. One breaches the physical body, one the soul.
We feel them. We’ve experienced them. They are indescribable. Words never doing justice to the impact they create.
A heart wound fills the room with:
the battered breath of the devastatingly broken gasping to find air
the anguished sobs of awakened truths
the weight of tragedy baring down on stunned shoulders
Read MoreWhere was God when you experienced your deepest pain? Where was He in the room when your heart was dealt the most crushing blow? The one you thought you’d never recover from… Where was He when that person traumatized you? When that loss broke you? When it was all you could do just to function?
Read MoreMemories of trauma pierce effortlessly like the tip of a well sharpened weapon at the most tender wounds. They suck the breath right out of your lungs. Another memory comes quickly before you have the chance to catch it.
Without realizing it, you’re holding your breath as you relive what feels like yesterday, no matter how long it’s been.
Read MoreWhat does BECOMING look like? I think it looks like a birthing process. Indescribable pain that words can’t give full justice too. Unrelenting, savage experiences that build up the warrior in you. Relentless grit poured in layers that forms the foundation of who you’re BECOMING.
Read MoreEver feel stuck? Ever work your tail off and feel like the results you see are minimal compared to the effort you’ve exerted? Been there. Done that. Bought not just the t-shirt, but the whole stinkin’ outfit …
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